Day 43

Well today, for the first time in my life, I carried on a conversation with a stranger, and a boy no less, that consisted of more than just, "Hi, how are you?" pleasantries. It was almost awkward, and a little weird. But, he seems like a nice young man, and I did survive talking to a stranger/boy without dying, so that's good. (Being me, I could have died from either one, talking to a stranger, or talking to a boy. Talking to a combination of both is frightening....)

Day 42

So...in my Literature class we watched Sumo Wrestling. I can't explain why...okay, well yes I can. We are currently reading a book which is set in Japan, so as a class we are delving into that culture so that we can comprehend the story on a deeper level. But still...the Sumo Wrestling weirded me out.

Day 41

It's getting colder! But I was still able to sit outside and enjoy the lovely weather. It was cold enough this morning for my winter coat and gloves, but by the time my first class was over and I had my hour break it had warmed up enough. It was perfect weather. :) Not quite fall anymore, there was a slight chill in the air. But it was beautiful! I love this kind of weather. I just sat and read the book we're doing in Lit...for the whole hour....I may or may not have almost been late to my next class...

Day 40

I was informed by my math teacher that there are only 20 more days of class this semester! That is joyous news! Not that I am not enjoying college. I love my classes and being on campus and all of it. But I am counting down the days until Thanksgiving Break. Why is that? Anyway, 20 more days. I can handle this. The joyous news in math was shadowed by bad, bad news. We got our 'final review' back today, which is weighted almost as much as a test...and only four people in the class had a 70 or above. That is bad. Really, really bad. :( I was not one of those four people. Failure. But, he is letting us rework the problems and bring them back, so maybe I can redeem myself. I certainly hope so.

Day 39

I was on campus early today. It was a wet morning. Not raining at all, but misty, and the fog was so, so beautiful. I love this weather! I hung out with friends in the CLC before class, which was enjoyable. I don't think I ever equated college life to having fun before, but I do now. I enjoy hanging with friends, I enjoy my classes, I love being on campus. College is fun. :)

Day 38

I sincerely enjoyed my math class today. We were doing division by binomials. I do not know why, but I have always, always LOVED doing those types of problems! I loved math today. :)

Day 37

I only had two classes today, which made my day seem nice and short and sweet. I like open days, when I don't have classes for hours and then the rest of my life all day long. For example, my Thursdays are busy from 9am to 9pm usually. Tuesdays are my favorite day of the school week. :)

Two in One

Day 35
I was on campus early and did a lot, and I mean a lot, of math homework before class. Several of my friends were in the CLC also, and only one chose to sit with me. (I don't count the second person who sat at my table because he only sat there to be with his girlfriend) I'm beginning to recognize who my friends are these days, and who is just a 'friendly acquaintance'.

Day 36
Today I was told by my piano instructor that I own the notes but I have to work on the expressive side of things. Bananas. I thought I was playing MUSIC but apparently I was only playing NOTES. I do understand what he means by this. There are times that I can hear the difference between music and notes when other people play. But I can never seem to hear it in my own songs. When I play, I just can't tell when it's music and when it's only notes.

Day 34

We had mid-term test in English today, and I was so nervous! But I think it went well. We merely had to do three essay questions. My friend who is in that class with me was nervous as well, so much so that she was physically shaking! But I'm sure she did fine, she's very intelligent.

Day 33

So, I got back a homework sheet and a test in math today. My homework was a 77. My test was a 96. Apparently homework is more difficult for me? Weird.

Day 32

In math, when the instructor said turn in your homework....there was a lot of "I didn't know that was due today" "I don't know what I did with those papers" and so on and so forth. Wow, guys. Really? Then in Literature, only half the class (possibly less) showed up today. Why? Because speeches were due today. And no one wants to give a speech. Wow, guys. Really? Then at AEC practice, when they discovered the quizlet due for this week is 65 terms, they grumbled. Wow, guys. Really? I do not understand you people. Homework is not hard to keep track of, speeches are no reason to skip class and the quizlet was actually not that hard. Grow. Up. Please.

Day 31

I had very little school today, way less than I usually do on a Thursday. First of all, my half semester class ended on Tuesday so I didn't have that today. (I won't ever have that again, thankfully. College Skills. Not fun.) And then when I went to my History class I was told that we weren't actually having class today...so...I only had one class today. Math. It felt like a very short, small day. I could do with more of those.

Day 30

I have a couple mid-term tests coming up. I'm getting very nervous. I know I shouldn't be. I really should have nothing to fear. All of my classes have 97% or above for a grade. So, why am I freaking out? I don't know. But I have this irrational fear of failure. It haunts me no matter what I am doing. I really need to get over this. I didn't want to take the ACT because I thought I would fail. In the end, I got a scholarship because my score was so high in one area. I didn't want to take the driver's test either, because I thought I would fail. I passed with flying colors. (And I love driving too!) I have always had this terrible, terrible fear of failure. I don't know where it comes from. I have often wondered if it springs from the simple fact that I don't fail often, so maybe I think failure is the end of the world. I think I need to fail more, so that I can get over it and realize that failure is NOT the end of the world. But right now, I still think failure will kill me.

Day 29

I had math class today. And then I went to college skills and took a work keys test. Math. 33 questions of math. So I basically had two math classes today. Blick. Votes started yesterday for homecoming queen...two of my friends informed me they voted for me. Oh great. But that's only two on a whole campus of people. I don't think I have any threat of winning. (I don't want to win, can you tell?)

Day 28

The beginning of week 8. Wow, this has been a fascinating semester. I've enjoyed it, learned something things...and now I have mid-terms. Yay. (Not too excited about that) On a bright note, I still have A's in all of my classes. Most of them high A's. College has not been nearly as difficult or as terrifying as I thought it was going to be. My entire senior year of high school I was dreading this transition and change...but it has actually been enjoyable.

Day 27

Nothing very exciting or memorable happened today. Nothing like being nominated for Homecoming Queen. My English teacher often sees me sitting in the hall outside of my College Skills class before it begins (I'm always early) and every single time he sees me he says, "We need to get you a chair, girl." Thank you. You've said that before. Many times. 

Day 26

Well...I have been nominated as a candidate for homecoming queen for AEC. We've been told we have to nominate someone...and there are only three girls. One has already been nominated for PTK (Phi Theta Kappa) and the other has already been nominated for college singers...so I was nominated by default. I am not sure how I feel about this...